Romantic Comedy Part II

Then there was Chef. Actually, the word 'Then' shouldn't be the start of this paragraph because Chef was always there. He was one of the first friends i made when i first started boarding school. He started dropping hints that he liked me, mind you i was very slow back then. I always pictured myself to be a guy's friend but never a girlfriend. I also didn't believe a guy could like me more than just a friend. So when guys dropped off hints, i never caught on. If hints here bullets, i would have just kept walking without realizing that i was just shot. Since i was only 13, i didn't feel i was ready for relationships. so i backed off from Chef and tried avoiding him. In return he treated me very badly. i probably deserved it...after all i didn't want him to like me more than just a friend but at the same time i didn't want him to HATE me. He would hiss or give me an evil look whenever i passed by or sometimes make quick rude remarks. At first it was easy to ignore, but when it got to the point where i couldn't handle it anymore i told him, "why are u treating me like some bitch sent from hell?" After that Chef made a huge transformation. He turned into one of the sweetest guys alive! He tried to talk to me, be my friend...i on the other hand snubbed him. I didn't talk to him, didn't even smile his way. This went on for 3 years. I would be civil towards him, and he would be over sweet towards me. I can go on about Chef but it would take another blog entirely lol...maybe some other time.

After High school:

Ahhh...Hawaii...i don't know what i was thinking with Hawaii. You know how they say 'Good gils like bad guys? well back then i was a 'good girl'. He was...older, experienced and oh boy, he was one hell of a freak. He opened pandora's box to release the freak side of me lol. From rated G i jumped all the way to R-18. Throughout high school i was innocent and...well...innocent. With Hawaii...it wasn't a physical thing... he knew if we tried anything there was a big chance he would get arrested because i was only 17. He had a knack of bringing out the freak in me through other ways though lol. Hawaii taught me how not to be shy or embarrassed about sex and my sexuality. Although it didn't last very long with Hawaii...i'm glad he opened my eyes and mind to many things about myself and life. Needless to say, by the time it ended my mind was corrupt beyond repair!

You know how sometimes in our lives there is that ONE or sometimes more than one particular guy which we wish we never EVER dated and we wonder what kind of drugs or alcohol were we taking when we agreed to a date? Well...in my life that guy would be AA. The code name alone gives off what kind of a person he is/was. When we met he was a party animal and an alcoholic who was obsessed with Asian girls. Over time, after losing a handful of jobs and being kicked out of the house he started going to AA meetings. I was very supportive, encouraging him and motivating him to remain sober. He did pretty well. He got several part time jobs, decided to finish school, and worked things out with his family. He just slipped up on his birthday when his birthday present to himself was getting drunk. After that things went out of control and things ended. I can't help someone who can't even help themselves. Although i haven't heard from him, i do hope he's ok and i hope he got his life in order. He genuinely was a nice person, he just let his addiction to alcohol take over.

I had this rule: never date a close friend. The first friend i broke that rule for was Picasso. We had a lot in common and even though i was dating other guys, i could easily share more with Picasso that the guy i was currently dating. So when Picasso told me how he felt, i decided to take the leap. He was very passionate about his beliefs, hip hop, and me. I was smitten and head over heels before i knew it. A few months into the relationship, a part of me felt like it was going too fast. It felt like I needed space. Then one day out of the blue he asked me to marry him!!! I really was in love with him and i did see us having a future together sooo i agreed under one condition: that i finish university first. He agreed to wait. His best friend happened to be a female, whom he met after we got together. When it comes to trust i have no issues there. I can trust easily and when i do trust someone i don't believe in jealousy or doubt. After all, why would you be jealous if you trust the person right? In this case, it wasn't him that i didn't trust..it was his best friend, Freckles. Again this would be another blog entirely. So to cut the long story short, i ended it because over time I realized that we didn't have as much in common as i first thought. We had very different view points on important things such as morals, values, beliefs etc. It was mostly my fault too..i was too busy with school work to put more effort into the relationship. I wanted to explore the world after graduation but he wanted to settle down immediately. We just had to go our separate ways. I did try to remain friends with him though, but he said it was too hard for him. On the rare times we would talk we'd always end up fighting. But he's doing well for himself...according to Myspace.

While i was with Picasso, I met someone. He wasn't my boyfriend, we didn't date but he was and is someone i hold dear in my heart. I'll call him Yankee. When we first met, we were going through some hardships in our lives. Right from the start we clicked. We did have our boundaries though because i was with Picasso and he was with someone too. Despite that, our friendship grew. From the start there was that deep sense of respect and admiration. Over the years he grew to know me more and more each day. there was rarely a day where i wouldn't hear from him or vice versa. Whenever i had problems it was him i would turn to. One thing i love about him is he doesn't tell you what you want to hear but what you need to hear. When my mind was all jumbled up and confused he would be there for me to straighten my thoughts and feelings out...lol i'm almost making him sound like a shrink!! Even if i didn't tell him i had a problem, he already knew there was something wrong. He knew/knows how to make me smile...



To be continued....